I have everything I need

I've been told that many times by my acting teacher in graduate school and I really think I can apply that to all aspects of my life. We always have everything we need at every moment of our life. We may go through life with all it's ups and downs but we are always ready to handle the lowest of the lows and the highest of the highs and everything in between. How we choose to respond to these stimuli is up to each of us, but we must know we have everything to handle the situation.

Tomorrow starts another week and I have a lot to do. I have a lot to accomplish and when I pause I have a tinge of fear that I won't get it done. Yet, if I apply this idea of knowing I have everything I need then I will accomplish everything that must be accomplished this week. It may not end up following the neat little to do list that I have made, but it will get done by the time it needs to get done.

I will do well with my eating this week. I have done very well this past week. I am starting to eat slower and enjoy each bite. I haven't exercised much, but I will start bringing that back into my life. I wanted to say routine, but I need to change how I think about that. It's too confining! It hand cuffs me to do at certain time and when I don't reach that expectation I get angry at myself and discouraged. I have things to do and I will do those things but exactly when and where should be as free and fancy as my positive view of life. Here's to a great week and to listening to my meditation cd for the 8th time.

On track

I have listened to my cd and have done a good job listening to my body. I can always do better but it's been a pretty good day. The weekend is hear and soon it will be time to throw things into high gear. I have faith that it will turn out as it should. The weekend is here for me. I really hope they implement a 4 day work week. That would be awesome! Soon need to set up a dentist appointment and a Doctors appointment. I would like to do it before school starts. We will have to see. Here is to tomorrow being a great day!!!

Nothing

The Tao does nothing, but leaves nothing undone. Think about? Imagine...

Midweek

So today started out pretty rough, but it got better as the day went on. I've done well eating today and have stopped when I thought I was full. I can still eat a lot slower. I've listened to my meditation cd as well. I feel pretty good right now.

I changed the air condition filter and cleaned all the vents. I can mark another one off the list before I move. The moving cleaning list is getting smaller and smaller which is great because my production list is going to get bigger.

The stress will come and I will take it day by day. Soon I'll be back to doing 15 hr days , but it will only be until the show opens. You're doing your best and you will do a great job. I need to start exercising again too. I want to work on 30 minutes a day on the tredmill.

I just heard thunder outside so it will be showering soon. I love the afternoon thunderstorms we get down south. They are so refreshing and they cool things down for a bit.

Well, I must get dinner started soon. It's going to be a wonderful night! The rest of my week is going to be great too! Peace!

End of the day

Listening to the meditation cd: check
Eat well: not so much
I will do better tomorrow.
Nite!

Never give up! I mean it!

So it's 3:43pm and I just finished my lunch that should have been eaten about three hours earlier. I need to eat when I'm hungry! It's a simple rule, but I got stuck on having to finish up the web updates that took me three hours. I have to stop trying to get everything done at once. When I feel hungry I eat no ifs ands or buts. I eat then I can go back to what I needed to get done. Otherwise I won't learn to listen to my body, but keep up the old habits to get through the day.

Okay, maybe I didn't hit the ground running today, but I have eaten a bit slower. Little victories are good. Still I won't give up! Even if I have three lousy days before things start to stick that's okay. As long as I keep trying. It's important to keep trying.

I finally quit smoking. Two months to this very day was the last cigarette I had. If I can lick the smokes then I can lose weight. I didn't put it on overnight so it won't come off overnight. Be patient! Never give up! I mean it!

Never give up! Ever!

Well, first I have to thank my friend Maura Rogers for her passion for life and her music. She has inspired me and always has. We don't see each other very often maybe once or twice a year, but I consider her one of my closest friends. I wish her the moon and the stars in all of her life. I decided to start this blog today because normally I would say I won't keep up with it so why bother. I'm tired of excuses and I am tired of feeling trapped in my own body when I should feel full of life.

This blog is here to follow my journey to loose weight once and for all! It will also will serve as my compass as I try to change my thoughts and ideas on how to live my life and pursue my life's ambition in the arts. Don't get me wrong I have accomplished a lot of great things in the arts. I've studied with amazing arts and worked with even more amazing people. In my life I am an artists first and a teacher second. I have to be! That is only fair to the students who I am to guide and inspire in their career. I believe there is a great balance between these two passions, but maintaining it from day to day is always a challenge.

I will never give up! Ever! MY dreams are what inspire me and bring a smile to my face. They are called dreams, not because they are in my head, but because anything is possible. You just have to believe and live the dream. Today I begin to live my dreams every day!

Which leads me to my health! I must loose weight or there is no point because I won't be able to enjoy the dream to it's fullest potential. Today I begin to apply the Four Golden Rules and I will listen to my guided mediation for the next 14 days at the very least.

Here's to life, health and happiness! Cheers!